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keep your spirits up, even when you have no respect for yourself and have broken beyond reason...

Over and Under

I've been slipping up a little, but no money equals no cigarettes which equals putting food in my hand where a cigarette should be. I know I shouldn't be dependant on something like that to lose weight but it really does help. Anyways, I ate way too much today, but it wasn't a binge binge it was more like a normal eating day (unfortunately that still means I'll gain weight). After todays oops I'll probably be back up to 115 but that's still low enough to keep me confident that I can really do this.

♥ Amy

Bwah

Update:
Things have mostly been going well. They've been a little bumpy but being out of high school has given me a lot of motivation (not only for losing weight) but for other things like; getting a job, moving out, finding myself. You know, the usual :)

I went overboard on food last night but I exercised that day, too, and it mostly evened out. There's not a lot of goodies in the house either so it's easier to mow down on lower calorie food (or nothing at all because I'll be to lazy to cook).

I was going to not eat today to make up for yesterday, but then my little sister made breakfast and it just looked so delicious!

What I ate:
-1 pancake with a tablespoon of syrup (I only had 2 bites though)
-1 slice of cooked honey ham lunch meat (these things are only like 20-30 calories each because they're so thin)
-scrambled eggs (that's what I ate the most of but they only had some salt and pepper on them and I didn't eat all that I put on my plate)

So, I guess today has turned into an eating day but I'm not going to let it turn into an over-eating day.

♥ Amy

Idol #2

Mary-Kate Olsen

My idol since I was 8.



♥ Amy

It's Science

Eating every other day is actually beneficial to your health? I think yes.


Check this article out:


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A First Time for Everything

Yesterday was my first successful fast. Well, sort of, I guess you can't call it "officially" fasting because I had black coffee and cigarettes but I still obstained from eating any food. I want to go one more day since I've made it this far. I'm actually looking forward to it and I might do some more cleaning too; I cleaned so much yesterday to distract myself!


♥ Amy

Feeling It

I've been browsing around the internet and my itunes library for good thinspo songs so I can compile a good list. These are my favorite that I've found so far.

1. Me and Mia
    By: Ted Leo and the Pharmacists

2. My Delerium
    By: Ladyhawke

3. Annie's Anorexic
    By: The Huntingtons

4. Anorexic Beauty
    By: Pulp

5. Skinny
    By: Filter