Idol #2

Mary-Kate Olsen

My idol since I was 8.



♥ Amy

It's Science

Eating every other day is actually beneficial to your health? I think yes.


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A First Time for Everything

Yesterday was my first successful fast. Well, sort of, I guess you can't call it "officially" fasting because I had black coffee and cigarettes but I still obstained from eating any food. I want to go one more day since I've made it this far. I'm actually looking forward to it and I might do some more cleaning too; I cleaned so much yesterday to distract myself!


♥ Amy

Feeling It

I've been browsing around the internet and my itunes library for good thinspo songs so I can compile a good list. These are my favorite that I've found so far.

1. Me and Mia
    By: Ted Leo and the Pharmacists

2. My Delerium
    By: Ladyhawke

3. Annie's Anorexic
    By: The Huntingtons

4. Anorexic Beauty
    By: Pulp

5. Skinny
    By: Filter

Get the ball rolling

So, I weighed myself this morning and I'm at 120.8 which is very surprising considering the binges I've had. They've all taken place late at night after I get home, because I'll have a major case of the munchies. I have smoked weed before where I could keep my eating under control after I smoked and it was pretty good stuff, too.

Anyways, I've found if I bike around town and eat very little during the day than it kind of evens out with the binges. Not that I want to be stuck in this rut forever, but for now it's at least helping me not gain.

♥ Amy

Dread

So, I've havn't posted for a long time and I've been dreading it too. I'm at 124 at the moment and my thigh gap is gone. For a minute and a half I had glimpsed the wonderful feeling of being on the road to the thin I wanted to be.

I feel like ignoring this blog has been one of my downfalls in letting go so much. I'm back though and I hope this time I can keep under control.

Amy

Good News, Bad News

Bad news first:
I'm back up to 120, uuugh. These extra layers of fat are really taking a tole on my already practically non existant self esteem.

Good News: Though I've gained quite a bit, for the past few weeks I've been exercising quite rigorously and crazily enough I've actually been fairly consistent about it (meaning not just exercising one day then skipping out for a week). I've been going on 2-3 hour bike rides which burn about 1000 calories and I've been doing a few other various exercise activities. I can definitely tell this is helping the fat be more proportioned on my body instead of just a bunch of floppy flab hanging around (though unfortunately I still have that).

I've already gone way over my calorie limit and it's not even 3 o'clock yet, so hopefully I can refrain from eating for the rest of the day and do some light exercising tonight.
I love the feeling that you get after you get used to eating very little and you find yourself hardly ever wandering into the kitchen. When you were eating regularly it was so hard to not stuff food in your mouth, but once you get to a certain point it becomes the complete opposite.

I'm hoping that by my next post the numbers on the scale will have gone down, crossing my fingers.


♥ Amy